Painful

Darkness has filled my heart by this time, tears arrived to my eyes; they turned almost painful by listen the words she said to me and I felt so alone and strange in my own home, it’s not been the same ever since she went away from my life. You were my queen, my love, my all. I took for granted you were always being with me, alongside with me; there were some tenacious comments. I’ve waited too much to take the decision of telling you that I love you and I’ve lost thee. I was a fool, stupid and an accomplished person and I miss you a lot ever since the last time I saw you. It’s the price to pay, I think I’ll never see you again face-to-face; I’m sad, alone in my bed and you walk up the streets feeling no remorse but I shall never surrender, I’m not gonna give up. You damaged my soul; you destroyed the hopes I had for the future, a future for only two of us. This is my spell, I cared about, I spent long time thinking about the things we could happen and you’ve thrown me up like a dumb. That felt like a knife in the back, I felt the same way as some personage who saw his love of his life go with another man and have a son with him… his past enemy. That’s how it feels, it feels like a brainwashing, I begged you too many times something you told me “NO” a million times and now it’s too late to apologize. I don’t know how many times I tried to look for you but having not succeeded in that way. And I want you to talk about the things that I didn’t tell you. Bye